Britney Spears is ‘working on allowing myself to not be so strong and to know it’s ok to cry’

She took a trip down memory lane.

And Britney Spears reminisced on her beginning days in the spotlight as she shared a throwback snap to Instagram on Monday afternoon.

The 39-year-old icon wrote of the dreamy night at the 2002 Grammy’s before sharing that she was ‘working on allowing myself to not be so strong all the time’ amid a contentious time as she battles a unique conservatorship with her father Jamie at the helm.

Britney simply stunned in a gorgeous red dress and matching diamonds for the 44th annual awards show where she was nominated for Best Pop Vocal Album for Britney, and Best Female Pop Vocal Performance for Overprotected. 

While she didn’t win big that year, she waited another two years to win her first and only Grammy to date in 2004, for Best Dance Recording for Toxic.

She captioned her snap: Yes … this night was a dream !!!! Sometimes you have so much fun that the time flies by in literally 2 seconds !!!! That happened to me this night!!!! I got to hair and makeup in jeans and a sweatshirt and I left like this !!!! 

‘It’s taken me 19 years to realize that I was Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman … the red dress … the white and red diamonds …. and geez the curly hair !!!! The power of dreams … my my my!!!!’

Britney took a more serious turn as she addressed ‘the craziness’ of the past year’ in a colorful post of an umbrella-lined street.   

‘I feel like God’s tears have hit all of us with what the world has been through due to coronavirus !!!,’ she wrote. ‘This new year should be a year of cleansing our inner selves with meditation … prayer… any kind of hobby that brings joy … and being conscious of what we put in our bodies as well !!! This all helps us to have a clear mind … body … spirit and offers so much more clarity in our everyday lives !!!! 

‘This year I devote myself to lots of tea and healing !!!! I’m working on allowing myself to not be so strong all the time and to know it’s ok to cry !!!! I pray for deep healing this year for all of us and I hope we can all inspire each other !!!! Again … BE KIND – PASS IT ON AMERICA.’

Spears has been locked in a difficult conservatorship with her father for more than a decade, a legal battle which was most recently brought to light through a New York Times documentary following the #FreeBritney movement.

Following years of scrutiny and a public breakdown, Britney was placed on an involuntary 5150 hold in 2008 and was forced into the conservatorship.

Britney shares two sons, Sean and Jayden, with her ex, Kevin Federline, who she was married to for three years before their divorce was finalized in 2007. Kevin also has two children with ex Shar Jackson and two kids with his wife Victoria Prince.